Sometimes I wonder where I got my indecisiveness from....was it from my mother when she was hesitant in marrying my father at such a young age? Was it from my dad when he didn't know what he was getting himself into coming into the states with a new wife? Could it be from my grandfather (whom I never had the opportunity to experience who he really was) ? It torments me every day. The people in my life have to ponder themselves as to how I can possibly be so imbalanced. I have to also wonder, whether or not it stems from simply having anxiety. Or could my inability to make rationalized decisions be the result of my anxiety? I really don't know and as my life sways in the present, I cant help but find the answers amidst the torment.